Hi!  And welcome to my blog.  Ever since I was a kid, I’ve been interested in journaling.  Over the years, I’ve tried several times, making a schedule to journal and explore my thoughts, buying a cool, new, and exciting journal to write to my hearts content, but it never caught on for me.  I would write an entry or two and then just give up or lose interest.  Years would go by, and I would try again, but the same thing would happen.  I just couldn’t make it stick.

A couple of months ago, I was having a rough morning. I had a semi-commitment that morning; not something I absolutely had to go to, but a training for a team I was involved with, and I just really felt like a needed a down day.  So, I didn’t go, and I opened up my computer and wrote a little paragraph about how I was feeling, and why I made the decision, for the betterment of what I needed for my mental health that day, not to go. And you know what?  It made me feel better.  Having that thought process, on “paper,” and allowing myself to have that conversation work down from my brain to my fingers, and onto my screen, helped.  I allowed me to look at, and justify, what I was feeling and feel okay about making a decision to do what was best for me that morning, even if it meant I missed a day of training. It was a volunteer training. An important one, but a volunteer one, and I didn’t need to feel guilty, or like a slacker or loser, or like everyone would think I was terrible for not going, when really what I needed that morning was a little bit of rest and introvert time to take care of myself. A few weeks later, I did that again.  And again, it helped.  

I’m not a writer.  I’m not great with words, or grammar, and sentence structure. I’m just a woman, who has a lot of thoughts, and like most of us, my own personal dark, secretive past, that I’m trying to work through, so that I can have a healthy and meaningful present and future.  

My goal for posting my writings, is that whatever I’m going through may be helpful for someone else out there, who is going through something similar. 

So, here I am, writing

Hi!  And welcome to my blog.  Ever since I was a kid, I’ve been interested in journaling.  Over the years, I’ve tried several times, making a schedule to journal and explore my thoughts, buying a cool, new, and exciting journal to write to my hearts content, but it never caught on for me.  I would write an entry or two and then just give up or lose interest.  Years would go by, and I would try again, but the same thing would happen.  I just couldn’t make it stick.

A couple of months ago, I was having a rough morning. I had a semi-commitment that morning; not something I absolutely had to go to, but a training for a team I was involved with, and I just really felt like a needed a down day.  So, I didn’t go, and I opened up my computer and wrote a little paragraph about how I was feeling, and why I made the decision, for the betterment of what I needed for my mental health that day, not to go. And you know what?  It made me feel better.  Having that thought process, on “paper,” and allowing myself to have that conversation work down from my brain to my fingers, and onto my screen, helped.  I allowed me to look at, and justify, what I was feeling and feel okay about making a decision to do what was best for me that morning, even if it meant I missed a day of training. It was a volunteer training. An important one, but a volunteer one, and I didn’t need to feel guilty, or like a slacker or loser, or like everyone would think I was terrible for not going, when really what I needed that morning was a little bit of rest and introvert time to take care of myself. A few weeks later, I did that again.  And again, it helped.  

I’m not a writer.  I’m not great with words, or grammar, and sentence structure. I’m just a woman, who has a lot of thoughts, and like most of us, my own personal dark, secretive past, that I’m trying to work through, so that I can have a healthy and meaningful present and future.  

My goal for posting my writings, is that whatever I’m going through may be helpful for someone else out there, who is going through something similar. 

So, here I am, writing